27.12.2003
Ho ho ho! Ze X-mas is gone. I've been a lazy boy. Merry fucking X-mas. Although one must say it wasn't bad at all. Had my Friend From The North over for a couple of days, watched a lot of DVD's (most crap) and ate some x-masy food. The shitty thing about Finland is that even the fucking McDonalds is closed on X-mas eve and X-mas day! Jezus, McDonalds and the like should never, ever be closed. Not for any reason. And WTF is the reason why we aint got no 7-11 or any other 24h store chain? Huh? Fuck. One must go to a 24h gas station, that is usually inaccessible without a bloody car, for ridiculously overpriced shit, and laughably small stock. Anyway, where was I... Oh yes, x-mas joy and shit like that. Anyway, here is the list of presents (
)
I gots... 1.- A huge ass inflatable pink alien. Thank you,
weirdo
dearest! 2.- A hat. Cool one, with ears. Black. 3.- Underwear.
Calvin Kline, I think. 4.- Scarf, decent long, and a nice hat. 5.-
100€. (gone already. Can't believe it.) 6.-
A voucher worth 100€ for a store chain popular in .fi. 7.- Complete
Sherlock Holmes Collection. Awesome. And on monday I will go to a PC
store
and get meself 120Gigs of HD and a new processor. Probably AMD XP
2000+,
since MoBo cant support any higher. Courtesy of mum! Oh, and here is
some X-mas
hardcore. Just because.
My,
um, pink
Alien.
Um,
yes.
22.12.2003
Snowing, snowing, snowing... And the bloody wind! I had my fucking fur coat on, and still it went through it like a bloody hot knife through butter! Christ all mighty.. Aanyway, went to work and then to the Police station to apply for my drivers license re-take. They told me to wait for a couple of weeks, coz of the holidays, and after that I have to redo my theory and driving. I guess that's the price one has to pay for DUI. I will pay it willingly. Anyway, after I will get my license me dad will sell the Merc to me for a meagerly 4k, over a year! Therefore I will have a "fly ride", for very little indeed. I am sorry for my lack of eloquence, I am rather drunk. Went out and had a good time, my girly and my friends. In kallio, the armpit of helsinki, naturally. Good time was had by all.. I hope. Anyway, will have my drivers license soon, and then... Everything will be better. Met some foreigners in the Stella Star, btw. All so common, all so against USA. Shit, I dont see them providing us with any other options, do I? If we would take their stance we would be but another muslim state. Shit, anything but that, please. Cant you people see that we are up against an angry, hungry new world here? Cant you see how decadent and tired we are by now? Decadent and tired enough to allow the existance of sub-culture, subversive groups of young liberals like you! Without freedom allowed by democratic(ish) goverments you wouldnt be here to express yourselfes! Anyway, that is but a minor part of the reason I think the whole fight against terrorism and the whole war with Iraq is justified. Over and out, goddamit!
BTW, the picture of the day is just a pic of the snowed in Helsinki. Still a great place to live.
Shit allmighty, At least ya cant feel the wind that accompanies all this crap.
21.12.2003
Merry fucking X-mas. Almost. These days have gone by in a beer-colored blur. Beer-scented, too. Met a lot of my old Russian acquaintances (sp?), made new ones.. And made a complete fool of myself in the process. So business as usual. Oh, and my car was stolen... My dear old Ford Escort LX 1984, 1.6 engine, leopard seat covers.. Lovely, in other words. Since my drivers license was taken away from me (wrecked my company car during the winter 2002, drunk. Rammed it into a taxi. Bill - 15k €) it was on parked insurance. Which means I wasnt allowed to drive it, but any damage done to it would be reimbursed. So if the cops wont find it for 30 days I will be compensated in full. That will probably ammount to 500€ tops, and my dad will take that from me anyway, since he was the one who bought the car for me in the first place. I have an idea, though. The old bastard bought himself a new Merc, so I might get to keep the old one. Now THAT would be rad. Pic of the day is of my old Escort... Rest In Peace, dear friend...
The red beauty. Deceased.
18.12.2003
Ah. The glorious futility of life. Here I sit, debating whether to go or not to go to work. Morning TV is on, rambling about various trivial things that go on in the Finnish media and culture, with dubious studio guests to state their meaningless opinions. I am down, was out with friends last evening. Nothing special, just a couple of pints in a bar... However, it was a pretty depressing occasion. There we sat, useless survivors of everyday life, each with his own problems and each a looser in a different way, and own opinion... Came home plagued by a feeling of general doom and gloom, of futility and general uselessness of life's struggles. Of course, couldn't sleep at night, plagued by palpitations, nausea and hyperventilation. Hey, contemplation of own apparent futility can drive even a sane man to the brink of depression. Me, it can drive well into insanity and beyound. My sanctuary, though, comes largely in form of my significant other. Dont know how I would deal with this maddening existance without her. But I guess I'll get over this existential bullshit eventually. BTW, pic of the day is from the bar I visited yesterday, pretty nice, eh? Jesus of the flaming heart holding what appears to be a joint. I want it hanging over my bed, dammit.
Update: Visited a great blog a few days back, now got hooked. The Russian Dilettante's Weblog is a rather entertaining thinking man's place on the Internet, impressive in it's clarity of thought and depth of opinion. Recommended indeed after you grow tired of reading whiny neurotic youths like me pondering on nothing in particular.
Jezus. In a Bar. Deeply do I covet this tapestry.
16.12.2003
It's not going so well. My student stipend is now revoked. I will have to work much more, which means that I will have to find an evening job, since I will not be able to work mornings cos of the studies. And I will probably have to pay back up to a 1000€ to the goverment. Just when I thought I was slowly gettin' out of my financial slump... Crap. Oh well. Will figure something out, and hey, it will sorta make life interesting, eh? Nah.
Did 6 hours of work today, and the thought of having to do as much every
friggin day makes me shiver. At least I will be able to stockpile some
cash during the Xmas holidays, that might help... Sniff. But on the
brighter
note, I refurbished my mobile phone today (Nokia
3210), made it into a beauty from a beast. and for just 15€! I
know it's old, I know it sorta sucks, but I can send SMS'es and call
people
with it, what more do you need? A fucking color screen? Java? WAP? Fuck
no. I want to play games, I get a Gameboy... But I digress. The picture
of the day is my phone with it's new look. Hard to imagine I got it for
free (it was so old and ramshackle) by looking at it, eh? I loves it.
It
my preciousssss...
My bimbo-ish phone. I loves it now that it's pretty!
15.12.2003
Yep. It's official. Sorta. Winter is here. I have a suspicion that it will all melt in a couple of days/hours, though. I will have to wait until January / February for that wonderful Finnish -25c weather. When it feels that your skin will tear like paper if you pinch it and your bones freeze beneath all those insulating layers of winter clothing. In other words, it's luverly. I hope I get to snowboard this year. Maybe will go up north to visit a buddy of mine in Imatra... In other news, finally had that appointment with a doctor about my breathing problems... Results: Pulse / blood pressure - perfect. Hemoglobin - perfect. Lung capasity - perfect. Lung sounds - perfect. It seems that it's all related to my anxiety attack, hyperventilation or some shit like that. Anyway, the pic of the day was taken by my place, just to prove that winter is indeed on the door step. And I would also like to give you a link to a filthy sex quiz. I got 19.. "The good news is that you did all right on the quiz. The bad news is that you're pretty disgusting"
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...
14.12.2003
Oh. My. Fucking. Head. Never gonna drink again..
Went
off to the armpit of Helsinki, Kallio, and got sloshed. First sat at
Stella,
then at Stadin Tähti. Stadin
Tähti had a rockabilly band going, with teddyboys in their
40's
- 50's. Discovered a talent for 50's dancing! Spun my love around and
around,
was rather suprised myself, really. It's been ages since I danced
anything
50's.. Well, the end result was wasted money, at least 60€, and a
splitting head ache in the morning. Oh, and as we were going home in
style,
with a taxi, we had a little car accident. Somebody (another taxi)
rammed
us from behind, but rather gently. Still, that held us up for about 15
min. All in all, we might have taken it a bit easier. Would have been
nicer
to wake up in the morning.. The sweaty young man on the picture is from
the english bang they had at Stadin Tähti. It was okay, I guess.
Update: Saddam Hussein captured! Did you know that the retard actually believed (probably still does) himself to be a descendant of Prophet Muhammad?
Sweat boy, sweat! Like the leopard collar, btw...
13.12.2003
I admit it. I have utterly failed to update the site for the past few days. I have been in a little personal hell of my own for the past 5 days or so. Complete with demons, chocking terror, lakes of molten brimstone, and generally fire-influenced decor. I have a little disorder, had it for about 5 years now. I dont quite remember the complete medical name for it, for it is quite long and impressive, but it is a neurosis. Obsessive-compulsive anxiety / panic disorder, something like that. What it means is that if I get a panic attack I sorta get caught in it, like in a loop of pure, mind-crushing terror. I cant explain it, I just sort of cease to exist as a normal person. I couldnt sleep for 2 of those nightmarish days, but finally pulled through (well, almost) thanks to my friends, medicine (Fevarin) and of course my lovey girl. Now here's hoping that I won't fall down that hellish pit again any time soon... Pic of the day is of something that helped me pull through...
Update:Just thought you might like this softcore pr0n site.. Huge! MingeBucket.com
Fevarin keeps me warm...
08.12.2003
2nd day without a cig. Still having fucked-up breathing problems. All night, not to mention the breathing thing, it sounded like the airspace above our flat was turned into a Jumbo Jet throughfare! Actually managed to get up at 0730 today, which is all my girly's accomplishment,
and went to work. Worked till 1300, and it sure sucked. Sucked the life essence out of me. Plus I was wheezing and dying from lack of air. Being extremely bitchy due to nicotine shortage didn't help matters any, either.. However, I have to work, unfortunately. And today's pic o' the day is the monster machine I work with most of the time.. Oh! And since you people are so nice, you get... A wonderful porn link filled with tasty images of young women!! Yummy! Yesh sir! Feast your eyes here. And, btw, all free, naturally..
The
chuga-chuga
machine.
07.12.2003
What should have been a productive day turned into something less so. Instead of going to work in the morning, as was the plan, I slept in. Thing is, I had a bad case of breathing problems at night, so I lay there, scared and out of breath, well into the early hours of the morning. Naturally, didnt get much sleep. The good side-effect is that it gave me that kick I needed to quit smoking. This is my first day in about 3 years without a cig.. And I have smoked all in all for about 9 years. Still, I am kinda apprehensive now, thinking about going to the doc... Anyway. I did get out eventually, took lunch to my girly's workplace, and went on a looting spree, producing "Medal Of Honor: Allied Assault Deluxe Edition"! Hooray me. But it is an awesome game. I was once in a clan that was leading in clanBase.. Sigh. I started to work out, too. I am gettin a bit flabby round the mid-section, so it's time to get in shape. The pic of the day is my cat, Slinky, who was naughty today, spreading havoc as I was trying to clean. As you can see, the Rainbow Six "ski-mask" fits her remarkably well!
Bloody crazy cat! Ze combat hat fits.
06.12.2003
It has been a good week. Sorry for the lack of updates, for that you people will get a game! Duck Hunt! In flash! or PHP. Whatever, it's good! Anyway, my ex had a High School graduation party yesterday, so that will be the pic of the day. It was fun, especially towards the end. Got nicely tipsy with my girly, went home with a taxi at around 6AM... Woke up at 1400, then watched Terminator 3, and loved it! I am glad that they didnt succumb to the "happy ending" plague. Definately worth a rent. I'd even buy it if it was cheap enough! And one more thing that made the week great was that I got my tax returns, all ~240€ of it. Plus my student aid, and a bit of salary... So I was pleasantly suprised to discover ~750€ in my account. Thats more than I've had in it for years.. But I'm afraid 2/3 of it will go towards rent and food... I hope I wont end up in the minus towards the end of the month. I hate being poor. Anybody need an able-bodied rus-eng interpreter/translator? Oh, and a bit about the pic. The animal in question (stuffed) is called "Eunukki", meaning eunuch in finnish. Its lovely!
Thats
the dear
Eunukki!
He
looks dead,
I
know...
02.12.2003
Today I had a nicely productive day, at last. Woke up at 7:10, or was awoken by my girly, that is, and went to work. Did some hours, and then to town... Must have walked miles while there! It was beautiful. Hence the pic of the day. Aanyway, aquired a couple of games. Civ III(+Play The World) and Myst III. Myst sucked. Want to try the newer one. You get to create a character that resembles you almost totally! Back to the day... All in all, a good day, I must say. Finally deposited some cash into my savings account, now have 20€ there, met Mr. Japan, a good friend of mine, got a book for darling girly (by Laurell K. Hamilton), games for myself.. Awesome. Simple it maybe was, but nice. Oh, and had a couple of cigs today, too.. Bad kitty! =/
I love Helsinki !
01.12.2003
A day filled with nothing much, once again. However, I did nick "Rainbow Six 3, Raven Shield". They had a sort of "special forces" ski-mask hat on the box, so I thought it was meant to be worn. Further reassured by the label inside the hat that stated "One size fits all", I decided to try it on. For results, please check out the pic of the day. All I can say is "False Advertizing"! Oh, also tried to quit smoking today. Not much success there. Had a pint, and with that, naturally, a cig. Will give it another shot tomorrow.
We who are about to die salute you!
